i see now why people hate to use "depression" as an excuse.


because no one really cares and no one really believes them
and they say, that's so sad, you must want attention.
well, maybe attention is just something they've been deprived of for far too long

and support, and encouragement, and love.

and their only source of this is gone every week
and they're scared of becoming dependent
and they're scared of ruining the relationship.
they're shifty, and not by choice.
but because they've learned to live for what they can,
and to forget their past.

always tired, they can never get enough sleep.
and when it hurts too much inside, they try to balance the pain
by hurting their outsides
or by hurting the only people who really do care
through means of sarcasm and passive aggression.
they're ruining their relationships.
even those that are not closest, they neglect.
they don't have the energy to make these people happy.
they hate happy.